Are you okay

I am always asking him this. What it really means is- are you moving in the right direction. What it really means is - are you changing your mind. 

How mother fucking scary to always worry about him.

I am always worried about him I am always checking in on him.

Im going to stop starting today. Today is the last time unless I have an actual cause or reason to worry (not sure what that is but I guess I will know when it comes).

I always worried about him. I always wanted to know if he was okay. And he always said he was. And now that shit hit the fan I am still worried about him. 

But I need to stop. I need to stop doing that.